Kathrine: I’m An Orphan But I Won’t Do It – Episode 5
I ran ahead of Sarah, took the kíítchén kñíífé, raised it up, and was about to plúñgé it into my stómàçh when Sarah grààbbéd my hàñds from behínd and tried to snà+ch the kñíífé from me. ‘Dóñ’t dó ít. Give me the kñíífé, Katherine, pléàse don’t dó ít,’ she said.
“Why? Why shouldn’t I do ít? Líífe is so uñfàíír to me, and I think it’s time I lét go. Leave the kñíífé, mind your business, and let me decííde what I want to do with my líífe. You’re in no position to tell me what I should dóó with my líífe. Bààçk off N0W!” I yé||éd bàçk at Sarah, trying so hààrd to fórçé the kñíífé inside my bé||y.
“Okay, forget about me. Let’s talk about your Múm. Do you think her spíírít would find s0làce if you should éññd ít here?”
“You’re the last of your kind, and you must stay àlíívé to redeem that which was lóst. If you dííé now, you will completely eràse your entíre b|00dlíñe.”
“Your Dààd is góñé, your Múm is góñé, and you’re the only one who is léft of this p00r famíly. Only you have the mantle and the p0wer, like an avatar, to rewrite history and rebuild your br0kén fóundations.”
“You’re the last, but you don’t have to be the éñd. I don’t know many details about your past, but you must never let it decide the path you choose.”
“Life indeed may not have been fàír to you, but that doesn’t mean you should also be unfàír to yourself. Don’t let life walk you like a d0g, let life be the d0g you walk.”
“Katherine, like a phoenix, sometimes we need to dííé, not a physical dééàth, to líve again. We need to get búrñt to be bórñ again. We need to fall to rise again.”
“If you dííé because your Mom dííéd, you just l0st two zeróes. If you dííé because you l0st your job, you just proved your lífe was tíed to it, and you l0se two zeróes.”
“Wake up, Katherine, I know you’re willing to dííé because your whole family is dééàd, but we don’t have to dííé for what we could líve for. We rather need to líve for what we could dííé for.”
“This is the real dééàth; to LIVE.”
My hands began to shàké, and I no longer had the stréñgth to hold onto the kñíífé. The words of Sarah wéàkéñed my body and strengthened my spírít.
I gave up the kñíífé, knelt down, and started cryííñg. All the while that Sarah was speaking, I wasn’t listening to Sarah. I was listening to my Múm. Sarah was speaking, but what I heard was my Múm speaking.
It felt so real, as though I was reading another letter she wrote for me. The words of Sarah did sink so deep that I wished she never stopped talking.
The more she spoke, the more my spírít was strengthened, and the more I kept seeing reasons to stay alííve, try again, be strong, and push again.
I hadn’t even told Sarah about the letter and móñey my Mom left behind, and she already gave me enough reasons to stay alííve.
She won my heart and won my trust, and hence, I felt confident enough to tell her about the letter and the móñey.
I hoped that in doing so, we could put heads together and come up with something tangible I could do with the móñey.
As I managed to stand up so that we could sit down to discuss that, I noticed that Sarah was cryííñg. At first, I thought it’s because of what just happened, but as I looked again, her countenance clearly spoke of a new gríéf.
I was curious and asked her why she was cryííñg. ‘Sarah, you don’t seem to be happy even after I listened to you. What again?'”
“I reckon these téàrs are new. Why are you cryíñg? What again are you hídíng from me? Please tell me; I may not be able to béàr hearing them another day.”
“Tell me everything today, please don’t hold them back. I’m used to bààd néws already, I know that I am so úñlúçky. Tell me, and I promise I won’t húúrt myself this time. It’s a promise; please tell me,” I said.
“Trust me, Katherine, you don’t want to héàr this one. You’ve heard enough bààd néws lately, and you’ve been through so much already. You never would’ve even known about l0sing your job today.”
“It was a místake, and I wish it never happened. Just take a look at how much hàv0ç it almost wréçkéd on you.”
“In fact, this bààd news isn’t for you, neither is it about you. It’s about me, and don’t worry, I can béàr it all alóne.”
“I’d be a very héàrt|éss friend to add to your búrdéñs at this moment when you already have more than you can carry.”
“You didn’t even ask me why I didn’t come along with my luggage, but it’s okay. I don’t expect you to notice that because you’re going through a lót right now.”
“I’m sorry, Katherine, I do really appreciate the fact that you were kind enough to ask me to come líve with you. Thank you so much, but I can’t do that, and trust me, it’s for your overall good.”
“I’ve done úñspéàkable things that I am not proud of in the past, and it seems it’s júúdgméñt time for me. My cup of inííqúíty is full, and kàrmà has come to reward my míísdééds.”
“What are you talking about? Why are you speaking in pr0verbs? Sarah please st0p it; you’re making me even more curíóus.”
“You’re nót leavííñg this h0úse t0níght until you tell me what’s wr0ñg with you. You can’t come all the way to my h0use to help me héàl and expect me to let you go tréàt your own brúííses all alone. Whó dóes thààt?”
“I’m névér going to let that hààppen, so I thínk it’s béttér you stàrt talkííñg.” I said as I went to lóçk the dóór.
To be continued ✍️